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[03 Nov 2005|10:12pm] |
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what have you done to me?
what is it that you possess that keeps you so close to my heart?
i wish i could hate you
but no matter how hard i try...
it just makes me love you more.
it's so frustrating
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| my new project |
[23 Jul 2005|12:15am] |
"only this once..."
oh but those words stuck so thick in my mind. like he was still there with me. i knew he wasn't but i couldnt help but to think of his voice at that moment. with it's soothing texture, it's satin edges. i told her i was sorry for letting her down. she would never understand. it was his choice to leave. but she would always think it was because of me. when it rained that night, i saw her standing outside...and i knew...oh yes, i knew for sure it was on her mind. but i never said anything. it would be the rain that made her realise...
he was gone forever.
three weeks had passed and everyone was starting, just starting to begin to mend. how it happened, was something nobody knew. or at least if they did know, it was something they would never speak of. tragedies like these were too...well, too tragic to speak of. so they kept they're lips sealed like envelopes with poison inside. i just sat and watched the world around me shift into a completely new place. it was a different country...a different world in itself, consisting of the same bodies, but different people. nobody was who they were. and nothing was what it was. it was like the end of the road was finally reached, and everyone was just waiting for the first person to jump, so they could all follow. but nobody was bold enough.
i saw her accross the room lighting her ciggarette. the glow from the fire gave her a whole new face, with shadows and those blinding green eyes...had never looked so grey.
i could tell that her tears were somewhere else, hiding from the rest of us. she would never show them off. not to anyone else. but deep inside she wanted to. wanted to burst out of her own skin and run accross the world with tears flying from the corners of her eyes like jets of salt water and sorrow. her envy was all focused on me. i could let them run freely down the sides of my face and look her right in the eyes. but i learned how on my own. she always tried to make me hold them back. i knew better. i would never let myself become her. she was too perfect in such a broken way.
It wouldn't be until later on that year, she too would find him in her dreams and escape the harsh reality she had created for herself. But she would do it the hard way. the way that i would never understand. the way that would bring everything once again to a crashing halt...and the walls of that house would fall to the ground and i would be surrounded by dust.
"only this once..."
it wasn't even a sentence anymore. it was a constant recording playing in my mind. no stop button, no pause, no anything but "only this once..." and GOD why couldnt it have been something else?!
it didnt show in my face when i heard his voice or when i saw him standing across the street or sitting at the table next to me. he was everywhere and yet, nowhere at all. and i would hold on to those images until they were gone. just like him. except, i couldnt hold him anymore.
all he was...was a picture.
something i could only see...but never really touch.
slowly...we all became that.
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| GUESS WHAT!!! |
[16 Jun 2005|02:57am] |
NEW LIVE JOURNAL!!!!
hideninabodybag....look it up...add it. go to it every day.
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| so guess what? |
[11 Jun 2005|12:49am] |
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you all suck!!! That's almost cool...
[except it's not.]
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| i would like to let you know... |
[10 Jun 2005|12:44pm] |
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twilight zone |
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...that there is evil lurking the hallways of California's High Schools.
and you are all going to d i e
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| raewr |
[09 Jun 2005|05:05pm] |
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iiill.............evil is his one and oonnnllyyy naaamme.
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| A NEW DAY FOR CRIME... |
[02 Jun 2005|12:30pm] |
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 IM A GHOST! |
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;ldj9342r |
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IN TODAYS EPISODE!!!
[bum bum bummm]
we return to the scene of the crime...
We left off last week just as Shaye realized her Celebrity Edition Super Starboard had been replaced with......A REGULAR ONE! [OH NOOOO!]
"GAWD! Now i'll NEVER know if im going to get any roles in HOLLYWOOD! This is worse than the time Ralice sold Tina's keychian, so Tina sold Jonny in a slave auction...and then Beth baught him...after Susie already bid like...$8,000!!! uggh....WAY WORSE than that! what am i going to DO?! I guess im just gonna have to sit on the internet 24/7 signing autographs...GAWD!"
meanwhile, at the center of the Earth...
"MUHUHAHHAHAHHA!!! Now that i have this Celebrity Edition Super Starboard i can control the continents! So that when Chalula chews through that super high tech map that i trapped her in...it will DESTROY ALL OF THE WORLD...except the center of the Earth where my top secret location is located."
[OH NO!!!! IT'S DOCTOR DAIPER CUFFS!!!]
and so..Chalula discovers...
...that the top secret agency she has been working for ALL THESE YEARS.....is none other...than the top secrect agency....that DOCTOR DAIPER CUFFS is in charge of!
[GOD SAVE THE CHILDREN!!!!!]
[to be continued...]
STAY TUNED OR YOU WIL DIE!!!
And now a breif message from the makers of CHALULA AND SHAYE'S ADVENTURES OF DOOM!
WARNING: This story contains material that may not be suitable for children and/or elder folk.
Due to the graphic nature of this plot we strongly advise the supervison of robots. No Celebrity Edition Super Starboards were harmed in the making of this story. Thank you for your cooperation. Enjoy Your Flight.
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[29 May 2005|01:09pm] |
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humdee dum dee doooooo.... |
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IN THIS WEEK'S EPISODE...
Chalula is stranded in a giant map. and cannot find her way out! [BUM BUM BUMMMMM]
"oh NO! what am i going to do??"
and soo....
she decided to chew her way to freedom...
Meanwhile, back at the beach house...
Shaye Saint John waits for Chalula's arrival.
"GAWD! what is TAKING her so long!? i'm not even gonna be able to play Celebrity Edition Super Starboard if she doesn't hurry UP!"
....
and so as Chalula continues to chew...
the countries she has eaten, begin to fall apart in..
....the REAL world
AHHHHHHH!!!!!
[to be continued...]
STAY TUNED FOR NEXT WEEKS EPISODE OF...CHALULA'S ADVENTURES TO NOWHERE!
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| so get this....[GAWD] |
[28 May 2005|03:54pm] |
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GAWD! |
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the music to Mario Sunshine....[wow...getting annoying?] |
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sooooo....i've just decided that im gonna be like.....[super slut], and see how much SEX i get in the next 3 days. who wants to help me keep count?
so far the count reads zero.
who's gonna start me off?
GAWD!
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| i am [a robot boy] |
[19 May 2005|01:45pm] |
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| OMG I HOPE I GET IN! |
[18 May 2005|12:31pm] |
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CRAZY!!</strike |
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I sent in SUICIDE GIRL pictures today. [iliedaboutmyage] But they wont know...RIGHT? haha WHISH ME LUCK! I WANT IT SOOO BAD!
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| Morbid Contradiction |
[16 May 2005|06:51pm] |
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In a rush of careless anger…she’d slit her throat. Not knowing if it would set her free…or captivate her indefinitely. Her purpose was only to destroy any love that approached her. And so she shattered all hope within their hearts…and led them to believe she was sane. Even though deep within her, she knew…the irrationalities that floated in her mind. The morbid subconscious that would later drive her into a numb sense of reality, where nothing made sense…but pain. Yes. She would tear them apart, and leave them to wonder. Something told her that it would later on be a regrettable thing to do…but she ignored it, and continued with her twisted ways of finding satisfaction. They never saw her after that day. All they knew was that in a rush of careless anger…she’d slit her throat.
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| WHAT THE FUUUUUUCK!? |
[16 May 2005|12:48am] |
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 destroyed.MAD.sex deprived |
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computer noises |
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UMM...HI! THE L WORD FUCKIN SUCKED BALLLS TO NIGHT! JEEES! I WAS SOOO DISSAPOINTED IN THAT FUCKIN SEASON FINALE! LAAAMMMEE!!!!!!!!
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| FA LA LA LA LA.... LA LA LA LA |
[13 May 2005|10:07pm] |
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LA LA LA!!!! |
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*dum dee dum...da da doo bee doo* |
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SOMEWHHEEERRE....OVER THE rainbow WAYY UUPPP HIGGGH!
THERE'S A LAND THAT I'VE HEARD OF......LA LA LA LA LA....LAAAAAA.
BOO!
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| hmmmm |
[12 May 2005|03:15am] |
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| OH WELL |
[08 May 2005|01:04am] |
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the postal service |
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i guess the more you expect...the less you recieve.
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